Fast, Faster, Fasting
I'm not gonna lie to you- I haven't done the BEST job at updating this blog, but it hasn't been too bad... right?! My Dad told me this weekend that I'm "going to get better at updating my blog" with no room for arguments. Sooooo… here I am!
I had the sweet privilege of going home for a long weekend this past week- and man did it go FAST. Felt like one second I touched down and the next I was right back on my flight to LA. It was very much needed, though- I got to see my favorite people, drive my own car, and Mom spoiled us with a bit of shopping... (When I say I'm spoiled rotten, I really mean it!) I even had the opportunity to visit both Mama and Dad each at their work which was so fun! Something that resonated with me was an encounter I had with one of Dad's assistant principals. She said, "Wow! You look so tan and so relaxed!" Um.... did she just use the word RELAXED to describe... ME?! It feels like life recently has been anything BUT relaxing!
Lately, life has been going so much FASTER. I've been busy nonstop with planning and figuring out next year and having fun with my friends here while I still can that I haven't been relaxing. As you may know, I am not a very patient person. I don't enjoy slowing down when there's so much to be done. (This is why it was so nice to be home for a bit! I slowed down and rested which I needed so much.) And in the chaos, I have been questioning God. "Why hasn't this happened? " "Are you sure you know what you're doing?" "What now?" I've come to the realization that I'm trying too hard to reap my harvest without taking the time to sow and water my seeds.
That's a big thing to realize. And we've never not been real here, so here's another thing: it's gonna be an even bigger and more difficult thing to walk out, learn from, and grow in.
As these past months have flown by so fast, (can you believe it's APRIL?) I have also been FASTING. Now, when I tell people this, they usually assume it's for lent. I have never actually fasted for lent, but it was just around the same time lent started that I also started fasting. I am currently fasting for my sweet sweet friend. She's fasting something and giving up something so difficult to walk away from; who am I not to go alongside her in support? I have been fasting all candy, ice cream, coffee, fun fruity Starbucks drinks and church café drinks, soda, and chocolate. Which, if you know me, is just about all I eat. So this has definitely been difficult for me. But it is so so worth it to have her know someone is fighting with and for her.
(By the way. I'm no saint. I have definitely eaten chocolate chip pancakes once or twice completely on accident. And when I say completely on accident, I mean it. I didn't fully register I had eaten chocolate until HOURS later when I was in bed!!)
These past few months have definitely been crazy. I am so thankful for my amazing, never ending support from my friends and family. Here's to a fast next two months, faster patience, continued successful fasting, and taking time to sow and water my seeds.
Person I miss the most: my girl, Say
Song of the week: Pieces// Bethel Music & Steffany Gretzinger
Verse of the week: 1 Timothy 4:12
"Don't let anyone despise your youth, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, and in purity."
All my love,
Rylee Maria
I had the sweet privilege of going home for a long weekend this past week- and man did it go FAST. Felt like one second I touched down and the next I was right back on my flight to LA. It was very much needed, though- I got to see my favorite people, drive my own car, and Mom spoiled us with a bit of shopping... (When I say I'm spoiled rotten, I really mean it!) I even had the opportunity to visit both Mama and Dad each at their work which was so fun! Something that resonated with me was an encounter I had with one of Dad's assistant principals. She said, "Wow! You look so tan and so relaxed!" Um.... did she just use the word RELAXED to describe... ME?! It feels like life recently has been anything BUT relaxing!
Lately, life has been going so much FASTER. I've been busy nonstop with planning and figuring out next year and having fun with my friends here while I still can that I haven't been relaxing. As you may know, I am not a very patient person. I don't enjoy slowing down when there's so much to be done. (This is why it was so nice to be home for a bit! I slowed down and rested which I needed so much.) And in the chaos, I have been questioning God. "Why hasn't this happened? " "Are you sure you know what you're doing?" "What now?" I've come to the realization that I'm trying too hard to reap my harvest without taking the time to sow and water my seeds.
That's a big thing to realize. And we've never not been real here, so here's another thing: it's gonna be an even bigger and more difficult thing to walk out, learn from, and grow in.
As these past months have flown by so fast, (can you believe it's APRIL?) I have also been FASTING. Now, when I tell people this, they usually assume it's for lent. I have never actually fasted for lent, but it was just around the same time lent started that I also started fasting. I am currently fasting for my sweet sweet friend. She's fasting something and giving up something so difficult to walk away from; who am I not to go alongside her in support? I have been fasting all candy, ice cream, coffee, fun fruity Starbucks drinks and church café drinks, soda, and chocolate. Which, if you know me, is just about all I eat. So this has definitely been difficult for me. But it is so so worth it to have her know someone is fighting with and for her.
(By the way. I'm no saint. I have definitely eaten chocolate chip pancakes once or twice completely on accident. And when I say completely on accident, I mean it. I didn't fully register I had eaten chocolate until HOURS later when I was in bed!!)
These past few months have definitely been crazy. I am so thankful for my amazing, never ending support from my friends and family. Here's to a fast next two months, faster patience, continued successful fasting, and taking time to sow and water my seeds.
Person I miss the most: my girl, Say
Song of the week: Pieces// Bethel Music & Steffany Gretzinger
Verse of the week: 1 Timothy 4:12
"Don't let anyone despise your youth, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith, and in purity."
All my love,
Rylee Maria
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